Hard to write... "Screaming for trueness words"

What’s the difference between trusting the words and reality in fact? Are there times when these concure? Living in the trust of the words and being hit by the real situation can sometimes pull you down... What’s you’re reaction then?
I was told that I was digging too much in thoughts... but in this world of loving, trusting... How could you not dig in? How could you not be wondering or be uncertain when the words do not fit with reality? Clearly, in that situation, questions come to you...
A saying of „having the truth told in your face is more endurable than seeing it for yourself” is something completely true. It is something that anyone cand demand to have. And those are true feelings, honest opinions, sincere and unmistakable decisions. I don’t want to be in the situation of „creating a world” based on trusty words and then to awake and find out that reality is different and you were cheated...
I don’t want to be that girl... Something that I’ve learned living it myself is that well-known saying „ What does not kill makes you stronger”. I like to believe that I’m strong enough to receive any kind of news,feeling or decision...

„I don’t wanna be the girl that has to feel the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth...”

I can say that my most nasty fears are silence and the „I don’t want to discuss about it” saying in the look of the other...

In this world of me and you
I am having humble hopes
But in the silence that are you
Changes now those hope course.

I just need your conveyance
For me to know what to do
But when I feel your absence
My mind is screaming „I’m here too”.

Love hurts... reality strikes....

Words, promises, words again... and contrary facts...
How does that make you feel?
Does it matter anyhow? :|
Is it dissapointment or an arousal to reality how this contradiction makes you feel? The fact that what are you living everyday isn’t true... What is that? Fantasy, a story or just illusions?
Fighting in the name of love can bring out a powerful warrior, but cannot bring with it the certainty of victory... and that’s because all the interferences that come along the way... But for that love, for that above-ground feeling you can use all ways of defence, all ways to give proof of being worth...
Do you believe in faithful love? I do! If it’s shared... The most important of all is your love to be shared... Then is when everything is utterly perfect... To love, share, live together... One for the other... 2 in 1...
And usually, harm comes when nature most builts pure life especially for you... Then... Questions start to rip and tear your mind, body and soul... Your whole entity... Why did this happen? What have I done? Wasn’t I good enough? How can I survive? Don’t you realise the consequences? Do you even care?... And you look to your beloved silence... And the world spins around and fire starts burning inside you... „Say something!!!”


I want to believe that everything’s true
That is perceptible me and you.
Please, tell me it’s a nightmare,
And that you do really care.

And when your arms warm me up
Then so if then I ask
„Are you leaving me?” say -„Ever not”
Do not want to wear a mask.

And when you think life’s tumbling down
I show you that new one’s building now.
So when I say „Beibi, I love you!”
You can sincerly say „I love you, too!”